Self Harm Awareness Day~
i have been depressed. i have been suicidal. i am glad i am not now, and i’m glad to say i’m slowly recovering. but it wasn’t easy. i’ve spent days, weeks, years, being bullied by person after person who thinks it’s okay “to just be mean” or make fun of me because of the way i am. to make fun of my size, of the way i act, of every little thing about me. and it used to get to me so bad that i didn’t leave my house. i’d spend all day in bed because i was too scared to face anyone. i don’t know the exact date i cracked, but i did. All of a sudden i just stopped giving a fuck about everyone else and their damn opinions of me. think what you want about my size. think what you want about how i act, or how i dress. make fun of me all you fucking want. at the end of the day, i am still a survivor. and i will continue to be strong for everyone else who can’t be. for everyone else who hasn’t seen the other side like i have. i know things get better, and i will gladly carry the fire for the rest until they can know it too.
so keep insulting me. keep trying to put me down and make fun of me for your own amusement. in the end, you’ll be laughing alone. and i’ll still be happy.
because although i am not fully better, i am better than i was now. and you will not bring me down.
Stay strong everyone. I love you.